Q: Wow, John; are you really serious about this?
Yes, I am. ;-)
Q: Is the Buddhist monastery for free to live? Do you have to pay a certain amount?
As far as I know, almost all (or all) Buddhist monasteries offer their teachings free of charge including housing. This includes the one I am planning to study at.
Q: Are you open to going home if it isn't a positive experience for you?
Part of the spending time at Abhayagiri is that I can't just spend an indefinite amount of time there. I have to apply, spend a short time, then leave and re-apply for longer periods of time. Then repeat. It's only after doing this on multiple occasions where both the community and myself feel comfortable, and that there is room for me, that I would be allowed to spend very long periods of time there.
So regardless of whether it's positive or negative, I will be going home from time to time.
Q: Are you afraid of what you will encounter as you enter the stillness?
I don't feel particularly afraid or anything. In fact, there's a lot of interest and optimism in what may come to be. It's unclear of what there will be, but isn't that the same for everybody?